ClaireSim♥

6 months into 2017, and i'm already tired out.

what am i? who am i? what am i doing with my life?
i don't know anymore. to everyone, i'm stupid. i'm a robot. i just need to do as what i am told to do.

for all my 22 years of life, i listen to everything they have to say. i can say that i'm more of a listener than a talker. i prefer to stay quiet. i prefer silence more than noise, prefer to be alone than in a crowd. i agree, i'm an introvert. i don't like to talk.

until i met him. i started to talk more. i started to speak. i feel the change. but now? i'm scared. i'm scared of myself. i'd rather revert myself back to who i was before, because i know, instead of me hurting other people, i'll end up hurting myself even more.
i can no longer cope with myself again. i'll go back to the dark. i'll continue on with my silent life.

sometimes, i really wish people can stop judging others by the appearance. there has always been a saying, on how people usually judge a book by its cover, and it pretty much applies to almost everyone i meet. just because i'm merely a 22 year old young girl who just turned legal. just because i'm not experience enough in my work, as i'm still in my learning phase. who in this world are actually born to be a genius? even a genius will have to start from learning our basic "a, b, c" and "1, 2, 3". if they don't, they will be just the same.

i just wish, i can continue saying the same for myself, but i hate myself. love? i don't know anymore.

signing off,
keulleeo
07 Jun 2017; 00 17 hrs