seems like i'm going through another round of failure.
totally stupidly injure myself with a blade. omg. i'm so dumb... so much has been happening within this two weeks, that i felt like breaking down. i've failed in it again... right now, i have to pick up my life and move on.
Yu Fong, you gave me many moments of doubt in the past. right now, i'm going to forget everything, and start my life from scratch. i thank you for what you've did. thank you.... okay. fine.
school's reopening next monday. totally not prepared for it. ): anyways, i will post more on tuesday. :D
right now, i shall say this in your face.
if you are still reading, i hope you learnt your lesson. and of course, i wont hide. look down on people? i laugh at you. you don't even worth my time, neither do i have to pity you. you think you've been through worst then me. but i tell you. you're so fucking wrong. so, i dont think you deserve anymore chances. of course, its only gonna be a joke for me to laugh. HAHAHAs.
Stoning once again. i think it have became my main hobby since the holidays started. now i finally know the truth. and yeaa, it hurts. i wondered about it, and i think it changed me. once again. now i find myself so scary. and sometimes i wonder if i can ever trust myself anymore. even if it is meant to end up this way, but i never expected it to be ending like this.
having thinking back into the past, again. so many happened. and many happened so quickly. and some may say, i've been through more than you! stop complaining! then, i ask you back this question.
"have you ever been laughed at by your teacher, or even been looked down by them? have you ever been betrayed or been back stabbed by the one whom you call a very good friend? "
if you haven't, then don't come to me and sing song talk nonsense. and i think you know who you are. don't come and act pitiful, and expect me to pity you. you're not even worth the effort to be pitied. come to think about it, yeaa, you are a total no brainer.
AND.
To 씹다유퐁:
yes, this is for you. only this portion. after thinking through, i admit. its difficult. but i have to let go at some point right? you, my dear friend, affected my life so much. you changed my point of view towards others. and sometimes, listening to the songs you requested me to actually hurts me alot. even though i may not talk to you as much as before, but hey, you're always here, in my heart. i won't forget the things you once told me, cause its part of my life. and i will try the very best to let go ehh? yeaa.
저는 당신이 그리워요. 사랑해요.Labels: #nowplaying Your Song - Elton John
