my ahh ma's death anniversary...
i miss her soo much...
i missed the times before she died when i'm p5...
its... terrible.. hais...
woke up early today, went to the temple... felt like crying when i see her pic... together with my ahh gong.. i was... totally.. going to break down...
put down the food... left it open... but my mind flew off...
it went back to the times when she hadn't pass away... hais...
wishing that she isn't in this world still... wishing that she had gone to heaven...
after that, threw the coins asking if she finished... this time i did the asking... knelt down... felt the pain at my knee.. i dunno what happen...
remembering the time... just before she passed away...
she fell down and was unable to walk anymore... she have to move around in her wheelchair... then because of illness? i forgot... she was again hospitalised... then, my parents and i were at the temple... i was 10 then... my father is chanting... my mother and her mother were in the temple hall... chanting too... and i was roaming around...
my ahhma's condition was... critical, and i'm at the temple... praying hard she was going to be okay... but... hais... shortly after everything my uncle called... saying ahhma smiled and... gone. i just can't take the news... hais...
hais... shan't say much. i have no mood anymore...
ahh ma, wish you are well in another world. always love you...
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Natasha: LOLs! hi.
Singming: hellos. (:
