Last day of May, and yet the situation does not seem to get any better. Once the day ends, it will enter the last month for the first half of 2020.

Labels: #nowplaying The Edge of Dawn (from "Fire Emblem Three Houses") - Amalee

so.... its been another long while since i last posted isnt it?

after a horrible start of the year, i ended up working from home for the last few months. after moving back to the office after a series of events, i've only been back to the office for 1.5 weeks and spent the rest of the time working from home. at least now its not as bad as the past months, stress level has decreased significantly.

but i felt that my mental health is deteriorating even faster. now a days i losing track of days, feeling depressed but i cant show it because i know that no one will understand how i am feeling...  after this pandemic happened, i really opened my eyes and overwhelmed with shock by how many ppl who are selfish and cares for themselves, or ppl who just listens to whatever news and believes everything that comes their way without thinking...

im feeling so tired each morning now that i dont want to get out of bed, but couldnt sleep each night. everything felt so troubling and its getting so sickening. im losing patience to everything, and yet i cant say it out. or rather, i wont say it anymore.

Life is tiring.

Labels: #nowplaying Samurai - Deaf Kev

so... the long awaited trip is gone thanks to all the events happening around the world. 

Merry (belated) Christmas everyone. 

Another week came and gone. It's the last working day of the week again.

So I did spend quite an interesting Friday last week, and by spending time with Vanessa again made me feel at peace once more. What's better that I can ask for? What's better than spending the day quietly at home with the people you care for?

Then, went for team dinner in the evening. had so many drinks that I know that i wasn't myself. Just wanted to release all that... pain and stress. and who would have guessed that the person who ended up easing my mind would be the least expected person of all?

This last week really got me thinking, why things happened the way it did. All I ask for now is just to have a normal day, everyday, without any unnecessary things going on, and hoping that the days are like that always. No pain, no stress.

Worst still, I can't close myself out because of the nature of my job. Having to speak out to ppl, having to talk just to get information, knowing that I would get ignored again anyways. I'm getting more and more tired daily, just looking forward to each day's end, hoping the next never comes.

In any case, I should get back to work. Things aren't very.. smooth. Just hope next week will be the end of my working year.

Signing off,
Keulleeo_
12122019

Labels: #nowplaying 九张机 - 叶炫清

can't believe it, how fast time can pass by without anyone noticing. it's alr Thursday and my mind is still stuck on Tuesday. woke up today thinking that its a Tuesday, wondering why was the week passing by so slowly, to realise it is alr Thursday. just another 1 day to the weekend.

my mind is still flying around so much. it doesn't seem to be settling down anytime soon. feeling so tired of being awake each day, waking up wondering when will the day end? work has been a drag. i cannot help but wonder what is going on with my life each day and hoping tmr never comes.

getting more and more uncontrollable. feels like only physical pain can take away a part of the pain, but it comes back after the physical pain is gone. feel that energy seeping out of me, feeding sth more terrible than what exists. i'm really mentally tired.

then again, thanks, but no thanks for the concern.

Signing off,
Keulleeo
Claire Sim
28112019

Labels: #nowplaying 生死相隨 - 杨培安, 崔子格

well, its the end of the first working day of the week. 

today was pretty hectic, at least its hectic enough to make me lose track of time. to be honest, i think i need more things to distract myself from all these things ongoing around me.

moving over to Depot Rd for the first day, and i somehow like the environment. its peaceful and quiet, although the mornings can be pretty eerie and all. but overall, it ain't that bad.

starting to feel lost about what to do. everything seems to be happening so fast while here i am, trying to slow it down and walk in my own pace.

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